i'm here to blog. due to some time restriction, i'm gona make my blog post a short one. So basically met up with benben. chit chat chatted. peied her till 5pm to meet her friend den she left at 6pm for her dance. i went to lib insearch for psychology book, but couldn find any interesting one. SIAN:/ headed off to vivo. realised that i did not bring my POSB card once i step into LG. so i was scoldin myself hard silently like nobody business. was super pissed with myself, how dumb can i get? so have got no choice but to head home.

okayy, so was watchin buzbeauty video, and came across this. haha. somehow it came rather handy for me. haha. i almost teared while watchin it! hahaha. love her man. weee.


goodnights(:

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Short update on my day. so met bd and eug in the noon. bd found the curler in my bag and start playin with it. worst still, with my hair instead of his. and eug only know how to look and laugh=.= HAHA. so yupp, i look like some weirdo after that. hahah. tried to straighten my hair with water. hm, it does help actually. haha.

lunched, guess my appetite is gonna get real bad for the followin days. no money, no talk. the thought of spending money turns me down): okayy, back to where i stop. went skcc after that, bd and eug played bball while i slacked around. haha. dajie came in the night(: slacked, and crapped:D all the teasin and laughters. HHAHAH.

bused home together with dajie while the rest walked home.(i guess) bus journey back was rather fast today(: usually it takes around 1+hour, but we took only 45minutes today to get back to clementi. (Y) didn really sleep on the way back, my mind is kinda occupied with random thoughts. haha. so annoying. i dun like.

but overall, today was great(: goodnights everyone.

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PEEK-A-BOOOO(: kiahgek is here to bloooggg:D spent my day with people i love(: (2) how wonderful can that get. hahahaha. so basically, skip the visit to my grandma house again:x met dajie for lunch and did some catching up. weewoo. it felt great hearin from u once again(: bought ah pao cha and i have no idea why i bought peppermint greentea when i dislike the taste of peppermint. blarrr. hahha. Headed to dajie's :D watched youtube videos tgther(: on diff hairstyles. hee.

bused down to bishan active to meet bd and junjie in the evening(: they played bball while we camwhore. hahah. sing sang sung. hee. dajie and i joined them after awhile. hee. felt so noob. but very fun:D (Y) really enjoyed alot:D all the laughters and such. hee. thanks:D

Had dinner and homed(: journey home was great as well (Y). loveees.

bliss(:

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i feel like blogging, so i shall(: haha. hmm, heres a short update about my day:D woke up in the noon. was supposed to go IMM with mum to get my slippers, but suddenly she got lazy and decided to cancel it D: so nehmind. lol. went WCPlaza with bro(: had pasta mania, free lunch finally(Y) didn touch a single cent of mine today. haha. seriously broke. went home, bro shared with me videos on derren brown. haha. hes cool! i got very interested and kept watchin one video after another. LOl. was supposed to go for a night jog with bro but we ended up walking from home>pasir panjang> home. HAHA. its quite tiring tho. was sweating quite alot. maybe cus of the speed we were walking at. we're gonna try walkin to vivo next time:D haha. funfun. tho the time we spent wasn't very long, but still i enjoyed every moment, really(: it felt really great spendin time w him again(: weeee.

i'm currently rotting. HAHAH. so.. what should i do nehh. blarr. ohhh! and i've been gettin hungry real quick recently. rawr. i dun like it.

hungry=spend money.

but if i refuse to spend=dun eat =gastric

dumbdumb. haha. okayy.

ohh, did i mention be4? kelly(my cousin) called me 2days ago and we sort of chatted. man,miss her alot. haha. she said she cant live without me. how sweet can that get!:D haha. come to think of it, i have nt seen her for quite some time alr:/ hope she is doing fine. miss her much.:/

i should stop bloggin before i start sprouting nonsense again. haha.

byebye, will be back if i have more to blog:D

imu.

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Mid-Autumn festival with awesome peepoos:D

Baodong& eug(:

Andy(:

so yeapp. Everyone met at bd's. slacked alil while before heading to tampiness temple. haha. ohh! and he scared me with a maze game which cause me to scream and teared. assss><>

ok, back to where i was. so yeah, we went to tamp, got ourselves free latern, candles and mooncakes:D (Y) hahha. it ws really crowded inside. but it felt nice:D i like it. hee. had dinner after that and we went in search for candles and lighter. hehe. fire time:D weewoo.

Settled down at some place(?) and played!:D

Drawing outline of ♥

Eug(:

OBD:D

Had lots of fun. and they start playin with deodorant by sprayin it on the fire. so cool. LOL. haha. after that burning the lighters=.= HAHA. BOOOM! lol. i sound like a sadist here. hhaha. really awesome. got so excited over it. esp bd. haha. so funneh. time flies and it was almost 11 when we left tamp. bused to pasir ris. and the rest took bus while i walk towards mrt. but SADLY, train service ended. so, i'm left with no choice but to cab home:/ xin tong:/ 30bucks): broke like siao nooowD:

hahha. okay, dun wanna talk bout money matters now. tsk, spoil my mood. i really wan to work:/ anyone have lobang? even if its just for one day i also dun mind. HAHA.

okayy, ending post with some pics(:

Bd& me(:

Bd, Andy& eug(:

♥

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i'm backk to bloggin noww:D so as promised, i will talk about my chalet:D . haha. hm, so basically went over to chalet around 5plus. i must really say that its my first time tasting such delicious bbq food. because most of the bbq-ed food that i have eaten are very :/. and i also eat very lil durin bbq sessions, but its diff this time round. thumbs up for the food. haha. oh! jun hao was actually our chief that day. woots.

went pasir ris park for a walk with bd since we don't drink. so yeap, chit chat chatted:D *pinky promise. headed backk around 2plus am. and realise that they are actually playin some @#$% game in the room. so we actually stayed outside together with joseph, basil, song jie, drunk hwee chiat and the sober alicia. haha.

decided to go to pasir ris to watch sunrise. so we headed there, without hwee chiat of course. haha. Supported Alicia along the way to pasir ris park. it was quite along walk tho. haha. blarr. time flies when we're thr. took a sit near the sea around 5am. haha. really enjoyed every single moment. haha. the company i had, the breeze, the coldness and of course, the stars in the sky. woots. i was pretty dead by then cus i was really tired. haha. headed back to chalet around 7am. weee. had breakfast at mac:D YUMS.

headed else whr after that. hm, wash up and took a short nap. met up with bd and eug after that. Went skcc after that. i continue to nap there while they played bball. haha. Played true and dare with eugene, jiaming and jenna. haha.funny peepoos. felt more awake after that. bought cupwalker den home sweet home:D

didn attend NPDS that night. i've missed 2 sessions so far already. considering if i should just take NPDS as a temp cca. cause i don't seem to be so committed as i thought i would. hais. i want to be commit in my cca. maybe latin dance isn't my thing? i dunno! but i really enjoyed it alot. haha. on my next cca fair, i will be sure to find something i really really want to do. we shall see yeahh?:/ big sigh.

anw, backk to this chalet thingy. so yeapp. it was rather fun overall.

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Blogblog. umm, my day was pretty great overall. how bout yours?(:

So.. woke up early in the morning, prolly around 7.30am. wash up and off i go. Accompanied mum to some CC events. since i felt that, i dun have the ability to bring her around cus of my lu chi, so what i could actually do is to prolly just accompany her to this excursion ba. haha. So yupp, as expected there is no youth in this excursion but its okayy. haha. Just a summary of the places we went today.

Jurong central point>temple>vegetable farm>new fragrance factory>some handmade bun place.

HAHA. was super tired by then alr. received a call& was told that theres a vacancy for me. so, went down to work since i'm really in need of money. woo. what a packed day. but i enjoyed every moment.

hahaha. i've finally experienced the true meaning of KIASUNESS during the excursion. i was quite taken aback tho and really hope that i wouldn be like this in future. HAHAH. so scary. LOL. felt really happy when eveyone smiled and laughed thru the journey. it was just so amazing.

At work, tho my leg was hurting but it didn affect me much. i had fun with everyone thr(: woots. and again, it was just so amazing to see how balloons are able to bring smiles on the faces of the children as well as the excitement in them. haha. i cant help but to smile along with them. it felt really great. The balloonist were really friendly &made a flower balloon for each of us to wear it on our wrist. haha. love it:D

Trained backk with Bd and Andy:D den home sweet home(:

Chalet tmr, i hope it will be fun and all. kinda excited bout it tho not alot of them are attending. hahah. woots. Guess i'm gonna pack my bag ltr afterall so i can sleep longer tmr. hahha.

thats all for now. will update more after chalet(: tatas.

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What will my future be? will i be working in a company or will i still be unsure of what i want in life?D: I woke up in the morning feelin very disturbed by all this thoughts. Even when i was tryin to watch videos to distract myself, i can't help but to think of this.

arghh. so annoyin. so maybe bloggin out my thoughts will make me feel better after that, i hope. haha. Ever since i came to poly, i start to worry bout my future. i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to do well in the workin society. and that all the companies will choose not to hire me. haha. am i thinkin alil too far? hope i'm not. haha.

i want to pick up new skills. but what?:x i'm not one who is very into business rather i'm more to the social and art side. i want to help people, and i want to sing. HAHHA. if only i could rewind time back to those days when i could just sleep and not wake up from all this wonderful dreams.

HOW NOW BROWN COW?!? ok, wait. my bro is backk. brb.

ohh, backk. YAY-ness. food, finally:D okayy, i think better with food, i hope.

so.. to continue, yeah, its kinda stressful to see everyone movin real fast infront of me. and i'm laggin behind.. i need someone there to tell me that i can, and is willing to work towards the future with me. (D)

haha. i dunno what i wanna type anymore, when i had a lot on my mind just now. LOLOL. haha. guess thats all for now, will be back at night to blog mooore.

Have great day ahead everyone!

misses. xoxo.

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Okayy, i've nothing to do nooow. but still, i refuse to sleep. so i shall blog to make myself feel occupied. RAWR.

i am feeling hungry now now now. how now brown cow. &i have cravings for subway cookies!:X i want to eat something chocolate-ty noow. hahha.

My bro is not back home today. why ah, and he didn even bother to call back. @#$%^. but i'm starting to get use to that alr. haha. the fact that he is always staying out. haha:/

hmm, BZSE chalet is in 2days time. woots. am looking forward to that tho. but, the thot of $$ sort of turns me off. hais. broke, really broke. i need a job:/ really in need of one. ohmaaan. *cries. ok, so anyway, hope that i wouldn spend too much on this chalet cus i've got to save for another upcoming event which of course would be more important to me(: haha. RAWR. so yeapp. maybe i should start saving, i just realised i have not been saving since i came poly. LOL . hahah.

ohh,just to side track alil. u know what! i've finally collected my passport!:D went down to ICA buildin myself today, hahha. felt kinda lost in there. but still, i found my way. and thrs aloooot of peepoos. hahah. quite shock tho. LOL=.= haha. can u believe. my passport:D and its not a renewed passport but a brand new passport. hahah. i know i sound like a nooby here. LOL. yes yes, i've never been overseas before. the furthest place would be pulau ubin=.= HAAHA. Can't wait for all the upcomin trip and stuff. YAY-ness. woots.

& maybe i should really start considerin to looking thru my fb friend list and delete those that i dun know at all. There is this african looking guy who have been appearing at my fb chat sayin hello for consecutive 3days le. LOL. hahah. but of course, i didn respond. hahaha.

okayy, tho i've blogged. i'm stll feeling kinda bored. haaha. and i'm HUNGRY. ohno. hoooow:/ is thr mac delivery for macflurry de? hhhahaha. OOPS. ok, i guess thats all for now. haha.

goodnights everyone.

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Okayy, i've nothing to do nooow. but still, i refuse to sleep. so i shall blog to make myself feel occupied. RAWR.

i am feeling hungry now now now. how now brown cow. i'm havin cravings for subway cookies!:X i want to eat something chocolate-ty noow. hahha.

My bro is not back home today. why ah, and he didn even bother to call back. @#$%^. but i'm starting to get use to that alr. haha. the fact that he is always staying out. haha:/

hmm, BZSE chalet is in 3days time. woots. am looking forward to that tho. but, the thot of $$ sort of turns me off. hais. broke, really broke. i need a job:/ really in need of one. ohmaaan. *cries. ok, so anyway, hope that i wouldn spend too much on this chalet cus i've got to save for another upcoming event which of course would be more important to me(: haha. RAWR. so yeapp. maybe i should start saving, i just realised i have not been saving since i came poly. LOL . hahah.

ohh,just to side track alil. u know what! i've finally collected my passport!:D went down to ICA buildin myself today, hahha. felt kinda lost in there. but still, i found my way. and thrs aloooot of peepoos. hahah. quite shock tho. LOL=.= haha. can u believe. my passport:D and its not a renewed passport but a brand new passport. hahah. i know i sound like a nooby here. LOL. yes yes, i've never been overseas before. the furthest place would be pulau ubin=.= HAAHA. Can't wait for all the upcomin trip and stuff. YAY-ness. woots.

& maybe i should really start considerin to looking thru my fb friend list and delete those that i dun know at all. There is this african looking guy who have been appearing at my fb chat sayin hello for consecutive 3days le. LOL. hahah. but of course, i didn respond. hahaha.

okayy, tho i've blogged. i'm stll feeling kinda bored. haaha. and i'm HUNGRY. ohno. hoooow:/ is thr mac delivery for macflurry de? hhhahaha. OOPS. ok, i guess thats all for now. haha.

goodnights everyone.

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I just don't want to be an option in ur life.

Maybe i should sleep early todayy. i dun like the way i am whenever night appraoches. i am feeling so sucky now D: shit shit shit. okayy, i need to slp. yes, and tmr will be a new dayy. blarr. ohh, and kbox session today was really awesome. shall talk bout it tmr when i'm in a better mood. hah.

goodnights. (LD,MD)

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#Letter 27- The friendliest person you knew only for one day

HOHOHO. and that will be eugene's mummy. HAHHAH. thanks for reminding me!:D yeapp, wonder if anyone else met someone like his mum be4. She is soooooo friendly and always have a BIG smile on her face when she talk to us! This makes us feel so welcome. She is sooo 热情 to us. hahha. i'm not very good with words so i dun know how to convey how i'm feeling when i type this. but really! she's really friendly, if only we are of the same age. HAHAHA. oops:x

#Letter to SINYULIANG

BENBEN& Yuliang(:

"to get something u've never had be4, u would have to do something u've never done."

HAHAHA. special dedication kayy. dun play play. LOL. As promised, here is ur letter:D

Hello yuliang(:

It was great knowing you. guess we only start talking when we're in sec4? or is it sec3?:X can't really remember le. Bt we've been thru quite alot during the holidays. i'm glad that at least everything is fine& we're still good friends:D Remember those things in class when u will tease kath and me. LOL. hahaha:D Woo. now, we hardly see each other around even if we're in school. hahaha. hope u are doing fine nooow!:D hahaha. stay cheerful yeahh! &Continue being a pool craze. HAHAH:D cheers!

Thanks for everything all this while!:D u've been a great friend!

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YOOOOOOOU, OBD! HAPPY BIRTHDAY:D

Hope u enjoyed ur day(: &like what was prepared for you:D

So where should i start from. hmmmm. Okay, went out to catch a movie with bd ystd and it was such a coincidence t met dajie and junjie. HAHA. so we actually met up with them after movie for dinner at justacia:D Pool-ed after that! which i am really sucky at. haha.But still, i had lots of fuuuun!:D hee. all the cheats and stuff. hahaha. (L) everyone went their own ways, so did i.

travelled down to sk after that to meet up with eug and louise. hahah. and they were late, 12.10. tsk. hahaha. went up to bd's house:D first celebration of the day. (Y) haha. played pokers till 1:30am and everyone left. blaaar:D

Morning arrived real quick. headed home and dajie came over to my house around noon:D went pasa malam with her again. woots. just love it:D hee. we bought potato again!(: NICE:D so yupp, she came over, chit chat chatted, slack around, blog. and left hse finally when its time to. hahah. headed down to pasir ris and was LATE, hahah. oops. bd actually waited for us for 30mins. heh. ps laa. headed to sakura. Not long Andy came as well. (Y) so yeap, makan makan, talk talk. HAHAH. we were laughin our pigu off when we were talkin bout some topics. haha. so funneh. took pics and gave present. dajie bought a tee for him(: cherish wor. exp:X HHAHA. all in all, it was a great day:D

Dajie, thanks for lending me ur hp tat day yeah:D *hugs. (L)

okayy, #letter27 and the one for the bestfr will be up soon! promised.

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In love with charice's music. weee.

Anw, was at bd's house with Eugene(: bd helped me to reboot my lappy since its laggy and i'm always experiencing BLUE screen.haha. Thanks yeahh(: went dental before that, and was told that my next appt wiill be like after 6months (Y). i always feel very lazy to travel down for dental. no fun. haha.

Was late as usual. HAHA.

Walked around plaza sing, held back my urge to enter yamaha to play their piano. HAHAH. Grand piano looks real awesome and attractive:D wait, whr was i? oh yes, rebooting my lappy. so yeahh, spent 1/2 of my day with them and homed after that(:

Dinnered with bro and mum. (Y) great time(: (L)

Gonna continue with my letters NOOOOW:D

#Letter 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
EVERYONE:D

#Letter 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

i dunno any actually. But if its people who are not related to me, i will say its those that are fighting against death to stay alive.Hm, just a fast fact to share with everyone; the less optimistic tends to die earlier and are usually in poorer health. While optimistic have a more positive impact on their immune and hormonal systems therefore death risk for them are lower. hahaha. cool much? LOL.

#Letter 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

"Promises. i believe in you."

its for me to know, and for u to find out(:

#Letter 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
cant think of any:/ SORRY!

#Letter 28 — Someone that changed your life

(: i shall leave this for the future.

#Letter 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

DUMBOfish'S. But slowly, i believe i will(:

#Letter 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

From the reflection in the mirror, i see a girl with very low confidence.

"Someone who just want to be like all other girl. To doll up at times, but thr is always smth holding her backk. she is always ask herself, why bother dressin up when she still look as yucky. Her confidence level always varies, depending on who she's with. Things that used to make her feel confident in, are all fading away. Now, the only thing left that she felt confident enough to show is her smile. hahaha. i know it sounds weird, but thats just how things are."

i guess no one ever know how much i dislike looking into the mirror. maybe only one or 2 knows it. haha. cus everytime i look into the mirror, i feel even more demoralise. hahah. so weird. LOL. but i am alr gettin better. tryin not to think and feel that way. i want to learn to appreciate myself and acknowledge whatever that is nice in me(: yes, i'm so gonna do that. i should start loving myself more and more instead of pullin myself down. yeahh. jiayous kiahgek(L)

"Apart from that, blurness is her trademark impression (sounds weird) left on most people. HAHHAHA. get to know her, and she may mess up everything u do. LOL. Her brother was just telling her about how all her properties(e.g handphone, earpiece etc) spoil in her hand. HAHA. what to do. PHANkiahgek ahhhh,Big sigh."

You know it sucks when you hear comments like, "its hard to trust u cus u are always making mistake." sometimes, we just want to be accepted and be believed in. Maybe, its really just me. my inability to do things right cause myself to face such consequences. haha. okayy, this letter wasn't suppose to bring me to sharing all these. tsk.

anw, presenting you all the smiles:D

(Y) you guys have no idea how happy and excited i was as i browse thru all these pics.

i never got bored of it(: (L)

SISTERs(:

BENBENs(:

See this blur and kum gong face of mine?

i still have it now! HAHHA. and u see that girl beside me?

She is Alicia!!

TADA!:D what a small world yeahh?(: HEE.

Fun times:D

BD&me(:

SMILES EVERYONE(:

thats all for my 30letters. thanks for stayin tune. HAHAAH.

next up will be a letter i've promised to write for one of my bestie in sec(:

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Was super obsessed with charice's songs. i mean, her vocal is really very strong. and she've got really beautiful songs. i could just sit down and spend hours looking at her videos. wooo. really nice:D

i've also changed my blog song to charice's(:
Charice- You will never stand alone
Do listen to "in this song" as well! AWESOMEE:D

Had the urge to play piano once i woke up, so i went searching for my scores and such. p/s i didn even bother to wash up, until i finish writing the notes down on my scores. HAHAHAHA. practiced several songs, how i wish i have a tcher to guide me while i play. woo. den sing sang sung:D(Y)my all time fav. haha. followed by my obsession with charice's song.

Now, i'm gonna spam my blog with letters. &i've no idea how many i'm gonna write today, but definitely more than 3(:

So, to start off with, i'm gonna combine letter 15 and 16 tgther(:

cus its referring to the same person. haha. here you go(:

#Letter 15 — The person you miss the most

&

#Letter 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Uncle Justin & Michelle ahyi(:

"miss you miss you miss you"

Guess they are in new york now, but i dunno which part of NY they are in.

hahahah. I only get to see them at the end of every year:/

i never fail to cry every single time they return. therefore, last year i chose not t send them off and stay at home. but still, i teared. haha.

i really dislike goodbyes D:

Whenever they are backk, we will always have our girls dayout and we will shop for clothes:D hee. i rmb we(me& my bro and his gf) went kbox with ahyi:D and she really love jay chou's song(: hahaha. durians is also one of the things that we will not miss out when they are backk(: and uncle justin, as usual dislike the taste of durians. hahhaa.

Its really amazing how Michelle ahyi and uncle justin get tgther, for its really FATE. When my ahyi first went NY, she wasn't familiar with the routes and such. So in the train station, she needed help and approached uncle justin. He was a really great man:D & ahyi was also really lucky to meet him, imagine she met some nasty ppl:/ so yeahh, they kept in contact and as days goes by they got married(: really, fate:D

#Letter 17 — Someone from your childhood

There is no one i have in mind to talk about for this. becus i am not in contact with any of my childhood friends nooow:/

#Letter 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Hmm, the person i wish i could be. who would that be? actually no one in particular. just be me, myself and i!:D

#Letter 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

i shall just keep this short and sweet. People who are important in my life dun pester my mind, but keep my mind occupied. Its me who is pestering my own mind. HAHA. sry if i'm not making any sense. abit blur le. HAHAHA.

#Letter 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Broke my heart the hardest? Only hurt me the most.i guess no one for the moment. But i dun feel like talking bout my past anymooore. like, every time i talk bout it, i will wallow in self-pity. wth=.= i dun like. AHAHHA. so yeapp. NEXT!:D

#Letter 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Hmm, no one i guess. i dun judge someone when i dunno them but i just say how i feel about them. But that is not judgin kayy! just feel. LOL. i feel like smacking myself now=.= LOL. i know its random but i seem to be talkin crap for my past few letters. HAHHAHA.

& never judge someone by your first impression, its the biggest mistake to make.

#Letter 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

No one. Cause everyone deserves a second chance(:

#Letter 23 — The last person you kissed

Hello Mr Smiley♥
"It's never too late to have a happy childhood."

This is my fav soft toy:D Can everyone just imagine this to be a human?:X HEH. i used to talk to him whenever i am upset. hug him when i am scare of those thunders and punch him when i am angry (OOPS.) but he never gets angry, and is always smiling back at me(:

When everyone is tired and sick of their life, Mr smiley encourages me to be happy and smile(: You can tell how much i take this soft toy as a human being. LOL! hahah. He never fails.

hee. i give Mr smiley a kiss before i sleep every night. and he is always beside me:D i wake up in the mornin smilin cus i always receive one when i open my eyes(:

LOVEEEEEES:D

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Exams are finally over. (Y) after chiongin like some ting dong bell for bizmgt and econs, i'm gonna pamper myself nooow. with what? no idea too. LOL. Rested when i reached home. 5hours:D HAHAH. But still kinda tired now.

On a random note; just wanna thank you for helpin me out in ways u could for this exam(: really appreciated:D (L)D. Due to boredom now, i've decided to write 5 letters straight in a row. nthin to do. heh.okayy, so here i go(:

#Letter 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Everyone. cheyy, HHAHHA. i can't think of any actually. OOPS:x

#Letter 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Hmmmm, idk?:/

#Letter 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

I dun hate cus its tiring. the person who cause me alot of pain? actually no one in particular, but maybe myself? cause i can always choose to take the easy way out and be happy bt sometimes i refuse to. not now only more tho!:D i am a happy girl kayy! haha. Hmm, i've always come across quotes that says "usually those that are dearest to you, are those who hurts u most." hmmm, wondering if its true. come to think of it,i'm really a very fortunate girl:D Cus everyone around me have been very nice to me, so thankful for everything. haha.

#Letter 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Forgive me? That would be my family members i guess. Though i know no one is blaming me or watsoever. hhaha. To me, my family members are always the most innocent people in my life, because they did nothing to make me upset or annoyed but sometimes, i just cant help it but to vent my anger on them. what a bad daughter/sister i am. but i am already tryin to change and control my own emotions. AHEM, BIZMGT-SELF MANAGEMENT. HAHA. ps, i just side-tracked. OOPS. hmm, so yeap, just hope that my efforts will be seen. and i love all of you manyyy manyyy(:

#Letter 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Hellos:D My dearest benben, i was looking at our pictures for hours before i start bloggin. haha. so much memories flowing backk. ummmmm, i shall let pictures do the talking(:

"There is just something special bout you."

awesome memories,

we take pictures of things we never want to forget.

loveeees♥

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#letter6 - A stranger

i can't think of any.

so... SKIP.

#Letter 7 - to my ex-boyfriend.

nthing much to write about tho, just..wanna thank you from waking me up from my childish thots, thinking that fairytale exist in this world. LOL. and pls, if u want to end something, end it properly. look for me and tell me. bt nthin, no msges, no call. and bye u go. RAAWR. i dislike the way u take me for, when u need me i am here, when u dun need me, u push me away. oh, maybe i was never needed. blar.

it was just a simple r/s bt still, it hurts.(in the past, took freaking long period of time to get over u.) OH, maybe not u. but the memories. BLAR. i sound so sacastic in this letter.haha. whatever. bye. NEXT LETTER!

#Letter 8 - Favorite internet friend

I dun really have any, bt the longest known internet friend i have is actually junhong. & we happen to have the same birthday. what a small world yeahh!

#Letter 9 - someone you wish you could talk to

Hmm, interesting topic. i guess it would be those that have been thru an extraordinary sucky life but yet still as positive, its this kinda of people that i wish i could talk to. note the word extraordinary. haha. i want to learn from them, i want to hear what they have to say about their life. and i believe i will be very inspired by them after the talk. I always see people who are strong, (in terms of emotionally and mentally), with admiration. HAHA. i dunno why either. heee.:D

This four letters are just short and simple. maybe cus i am running out of ideas on what to write. HAHA. okok. off to do my stuff now. BYEEE:D

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i dislike being angry, even tho it will die off the next moment. cus it makes me wanna hate. bt no way i'm gonna let that happen, no hatred in my dictionary. oh maybe for frogs, yes.whatever. stupid headache, go awayyy. bye.

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Blarr. Just a short update on my day. shall continue my letter writing tmr. so basically, i spent 3/4 of my day in school w bd. whosh. last day of revision before bizmgt test tmr. know what, initially our test date was on 10th of sept and i've alr planned my schedule on when to study. &only 2 days ago i realized that my test is on 7sept, which is like tmr. so packed and all. so yeahh, have been studying this few days and feeling kinda drained alr, maybe that explained why i can't seem to absorb anything today. YAWNS. slpt at 4plus5 ystd. guess it will be the same for tonight.

Wish me all the best for tmr's module. &really, i do not wish to retake any module. bye peepoos(:
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Hello peepoo, what a peaceful night. Just that i'm feeling disturbed by my hungry stomanch D: man, so hungry! okayy, since its past 12am i shall write my 5th letter noww(: so that i wouldn keep thinking bout it tmr when i studyy. YUP! okayy, so letter 5 is basically bout my dream, hmmmmm. shall share with you guys how my thoughts have change thru the way.

Enjoy reading, jus a short one:D

#Letter5- My dreams

"Dreams are those that keeps me away from an aimless life."

what about you?(:

i've spent my whole childhood dreaming a dream so impossible;to becoming a singer. HAHHA. Singing has been my passion since young. really. i envied every successful singer i see on tv because they perserved and work really hard to achieve what they are today. i mean, its amazing isn't it? they didn give up on their dreams, instead they work towards it. To be frank, this silly dream of mine was what kept me going all this years, really. i've never felt so lost till i was forced to decide what i want to do in future and what course to choose for poly. Bt the word "music music music" just came to my mind. my parents strongly disagreed with my choices of course(not BZSE), and it really got me thinking. &i was really lucky to come across this course, Business and Social Enterprise (BZSE), my current course(: Oh did i mentioned before? apart from music, i enjoy doin voluntary work(: i feel happy whenever i give. hee:D After i was introduced to this course by a BZsenior, i was pretty sure that its gonna be my first choice and i'm gonna work hard for it. and yeapp, BZSE is definitely the right course for me:D

i admit that i am not as courageous to go after my dreams. and i really dislike the way i am. bt that doesn't and will never mean that my passion for music is no longer there. it is still as strong as before.

In this new life of mine, i really hope that i will be able to reach out to more ppl, to bring hope into their life. But i feel that i'm not one who can influence the life of another, cus i dun hold a firm stand in whatever i do. maybe thats why people see me as very indecisive(which is true) and can't lead.(i personally think so. bizmgt=.=) it often bother me alot, cus i always wonder, "how am i gonna transform and influence people to think positive in life with all this negative traits of mine?"

Nonethless, i'm nt gonna give up in changing myself tho i am slow. and maybe it takes years to see my change. i want to touch the lives of people out there. can i?:/ *give myself confidence. YES YOU CAN PHANKIAHGEK:D JIAYOUS. LOVEYOU(:

thats all for my dream(: sry if i got alil side track, which i think i did. LOL. next time, #letter 6-A stranger.

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Good Morning peepoos:D i've decided to keep #letter3 confidential. gonna continue with #letter4-My siblings/closest relative then:D heee. Actually, i dun have any close relative, its all "used-to-be" kinda thingy. its quite saddening actually:/ for siblings, i only have an elder bro, i swear we used to be really close whr we can share and talk bout anything& everything, srsly. but like i've said, its all "used-to-be", maybe i'm the root cause for all this. bt i find it hard t open up t ppl, like how i used to anymore. haha. its weird, bt i'm struggling inside too, you know?

okayy,no close relative, nvm. still, i'm gonna talk bout my bro:D and of course someone i've treated more than friend, shes amazing. i swear(:

WARNING: LOOOOONG POST AHEAD:D
wee.starting in 1..2..3!:D

#Letter4-My siblings

blood-related(:

Hello, Mr Pig(: okayy, this look so retarded. the second picture please.

okok. Hellos Mr PHANkiahhow♥

"i eat, i play, i sleep"

Whosh. you know, i had a hard time lookin for your pictures! frankly speaking, its really a blessing to have you as my brother(: cus u've got no temper! okayy, what i meant was u dun flare up easily and always give in to me when u sense that i'm nt in a good mood and thanks for asking me if i'm ok when no one else does. it makes me feel loveed. hee:D its always the small lil things that makes me happy. jus so easy, u know?(:

had awesome dance moments with you whr we actually stay back after lessons to figure out the moves, listen to music on the bus and start recalling the cheoro, practising it at home etc. i miss those times when you are always hungry at night and u will ask me to accompany u for supper. i miss those times when we just feel so bored at home in the middle of the night and will get some fresh air and try out diff ice creams. i miss those times when we can just sit down at the playground, talking bout things that happened long ago when we were young and shared what we had in our mind. really, i miss those times. When i was browsing thru your pictures jus now, i had a very... weird(?) feeling in me. mixed feelings, perhaps. Cus i realised how much i've missed out about the things happening in your life. u no longer share with me ur problems anymore, so do i. As much as i seem like i dun care, actually deep down, i still do. really. loveyou(:

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Non-blood related(:

Hello Rolinda C.♥

"You're prettaye in my eyes, cus u've got the most beautiful character(:"

Fate brought us tgther, from strangers to hi-bye to friends to sisters thru all obstacles(: You know, those memories we've created are longer than the road that stretches ahead of us.haha. i still remember those times when we can just sit down and talk about our dreams. haha. but i've t admit, now we've start to learn to be more realistic bout what we really need in life. but this doesn't mean out passion for music is no longer thr, it jus means we've learnt to see life in a more realistic way.

tho we may not be blood related but i really see you as a big sister. you forgive me for all my wrong doings and lend a helping hand whenever i'm facing difficulties. you tried all ways to cheer me up when i'm down. and make me feel that i am still worth something on this earth. thankyou(:

Also,the times we spent in 海牒 was seriously memorable. when we meet up early before lessons to sing and catchup. during lessons how we joke around with our tcher and friends. the excitement in us when we move to scape mall for our lessons, the excitment when we first used the mic to sing in class. HHAHA. the encouragement we gave each other on the way, to perserve and not give up. really, miss those times. and with all those 姐姐们, those crappy moments we had on our way backk home.Not forgetting, the Mac moments with you, when we felt "harrassed" while eating and over a couple of stayovers i had at ur hse. when we got really excited. hahaha. i still remember it all:D

we may drift apart at times, but we're still back in this end.(:

People who dun cherish you will regret it one day, now, JIAYOUS for your Os and live everyday to your fullest. Dajie, I(L)U:D

当我 紧握你的手 你是耀眼的星火
就让梦想编织王者世间 照亮整个宇宙
当你 握紧我的手 我变勇敢的星火
和你一起闪耀 到世界尽头

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PHANkiahgek is backk home from bishan(: YAY. was actually a last minute decision to travel over though. was at wcplaza's coffee bean initially. heh. saw a number of peepoo today. HAHA. firstly, dajie &friends, joelle&eva den benben and her friends. after that, saw ahbud at J8!:D (L) hahaha. WOOTS. anw, had dinner with bd at subway(: haha. not long, andy came. studied alil. den we started to chat. hee. bout things that got me really excited and such. proposal, yes!:D but, i hope this isn't something that is just 三分钟热度 kind of thing. weee(: Den bused home. (L)D.

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Okay, i'm gonna start with my second letter noow:D hee. excited much, bt i guess its just gonna be a short one.

so... here you go(;

#Letter 2- My crush

Hello my crush, oh-so-long-ago. :D okayy i doubt you even know its you, blarrr. my crush-during my secondary school days, for almost 2years. whosh. haha. i did nthing but to just peep at him from a distance and every council meetin we had. we can msg alot but hardly talk when we face each other. thats because i dun have the courage to initiate a convo with you. HAHAA. and till now, i am still amaze with myself for admiring you for 2years without lettin you know. no pictures, but only a sentence you taught me. "its not bout how big or small the gift is, its always the thoughts that counts" (: lala. wish u all the best in future. blarrr. byee:D

hee. thats all bout my crush:D nthing much tho. hee. silly willy moments! and whatsmore, its all in the past(: we were so young and innocent back then. LALA.

i'm enjoying every moment of my life now, and i'm loving it(: are you? tmr, 3rd letter- my parents. i will consider whether to post it or blog, or to keep it personal and move on to the 4th letter. shall decide tmr:D

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"Have you noticed that those who are confident about their future tend to succeed, whereas those preoccupied with failure tend not to?"

its currently 2.15am now. & i've decided to be a good girl today, cus i'm gonna slp early todayy:D like for once, i am gonna slp before 3. HAHA. ohwell. bt thats because i'm gonna wake up in the morning to continue my battle. RAWR. i feel like laughin at the way i am studyin bt ya. dumbdumb. HAHAHA. kk, enough of me crappin, goodnights everyboddeh(: wee. in love with blogging:D

(L)D.

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Okayy, before i start my letter, just wanna share how i'm feeling now. when i look through the audience i am writing to each day, to be frank, i cant think of anyone except afew. pathetic much uh. but its okayy, i'm still gonna try my best to complete it(:

start of my letter writing, this letter is dedicated to my best friend aka AHBUDDD(:

here you go:D

#Letter 1- Best Friend

Hello, Vanessa T.♥

"A smile always fit ur face better:D"

continue being that crazy girl that everyone complain about ur noisy-ness yeahh! we all know that things are no longer the same and you've really been a very strong girl all this while. i knw u're tryin very hard to move on. &i believe u can, cus 你是谁? VANESSA TANG JIE WEI NEHH! Sry that i wasn't by ur side at that period of time when u really needed support, sry for nt being a good friend of urs:/ &i felt shitty whenever i think of it. but just so u know, istillloveyoukayy!(:

Its really amazing how we've got close within a short period of time(: Because of you, i was given a chance to perform, and it was really a memorable one(: &definitely, i'll never forget the stay-over i had at ur hse. those crazy moments and crazy camwhore. CHMA, the hectic moments we used to share and go thru tgther. Those tears and laughters we had, i still remember it as tho it was smth that happened recently.

Now, many things have changed and tho we may not as close as before but you know, i'm still as willing to hear u out like before. i still look thru our pictures and smile at those silly memories we once had. this shows that i still miss you de kayy. HAHA. ohoh, and we've yet to fufil our BUD's outing! no matter what, i will make myself available on this break after exams for our outing:D Continue dancing yeahh:D really happy to have known you. LOVE YOU AHBUD(:♥

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30 letters.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I came across this post while blog-hopping and found it rather interesting. hahaha. so i will try my very best t write every letter, which i doubt is possible. hahaa. i will prolly start tonight. for now i will get back to "study" my beloved econs and bizmgt. Stay tune!:D

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