Confidence

Confidence. a word easily understood yet difficult to achieve. well, at least for me. it felt really sucky t be me. not in the sense that my life is badd, its awesome max. What i'm referring to is the battle i have to face WITHIN myself everyday, ok nearly i would say. y'all know how that feels?:/ no one really understand how i use to hate lookin at myself in the mirror. Will anyone believe that i have fear facing crowds when i'm out alone. that panicky feeling. wanna be in a corner kinda thing. maybe to some, i may sound like some spoilt kid or some girl who is over dependent on others. but NO I'M NOT, NOT to that extend. shall not get detailed bt i'm really trying to face my fears.

i did accept what i am and what i am not. But i never fail to disappoint myself over and over again. why? i don't set high expectations for myself. Its funny how i came up with the chunk of words above, it was just triggered by today's dance enrichment. i deproved alot alot alot.& the thought of it made me really sad sad sad. why am i always the one lagging behind. why am i such a slow learner. why is it always me. dance is meant to be expressive& i cant seem to bring out that confidence in me.

dear confidence, where are you??

Even with all that is said, i'm not going to give up just like that. maybe i just need to work alil harder compared to the rest.

kiahgek, all u need is to believe in yourself.