i'm not good at expressing myself, especially when i'm upset. && thats when i'll choose to stay silent. but when I've too much in me, my emotions literally just goes out of control. i'm very sorry. i just feel terrible when something happen repeatedly and all i do is just keep it to myself. perhaps i need to better manage my own emotions.Tuesday, 29 March 2011
i'm not good at expressing myself, especially when i'm upset. && thats when i'll choose to stay silent. but when I've too much in me, my emotions literally just goes out of control. i'm very sorry. i just feel terrible when something happen repeatedly and all i do is just keep it to myself. perhaps i need to better manage my own emotions.Saturday, 26 March 2011
HIHI:D Went to IMH for VOP today with DD(: wee. tho its rather early but i found it interesting. learnt about the common type of illness they treat in IMH etc. haha. happy happy(Y) talk ended around 12. Headed to anchorvale CC to SWIMMM:D YAY. muahaha. This time round we swam for more than 2 hours and we've to pay for our locker's overtime charge when our wallet is in the locker=.= haha. retarded much. Cant believe i got sunburn and its hurting alot. LOL. Went to DD's house after that. rested and dinner time(Y) then home sweet home(:
Friday, 25 March 2011
Result is out todayy!(: && i'm really glad to see improvements in my results! The hard work and all. weee.really happy with my results this sem. Thinking back, it was a win-win situation. DD and i studied together, we had fun and was not totally stressed out. we cleared out doubts and had overnight studying just the day before POA test. haha. we've been there for each other through the whole period which was suppose to be stressful. haha.
SO, really a big thank you as well to my dearest DD(: HEEE.
Not long after, its time for year 2. muahaha.
xoxo
Thursday, 24 March 2011
back to bloggin(: So.. have been rather obsessed with Gossip girls! hee. its really a nice shoow. But it would be really scary if those things really happen in real life but well, nothing is impossible. so yeah. haha. After i'm done with Gossip girls, i'll be starting on pretty lil liars. wee. but dont worry, i don't watch it from morning till night. haha. well, maybe from night till morning. LOL=.= HEE. Kinda tired nooow and feel like crashing my bed BUT before i do that, i shall read through my psychology booook:D hee.
&& Results will be out tmr. Wish me luck.
Goodnights all! xoxo
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
Swimming today again(: felt really great. hee. i must really say that swimming is one of my fav sports because it does not makes me feel giddy and sweat. i've a very weak body. i cant stay long out in the sun doing sport, if not i'll start to have blur vision, giddy~ hhaha. so yeap:/ Maybe i can do it indirectly by going back t my dance classes and swim moooore!:D
Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Monday, 21 March 2011
Today's topic will be alil random but no offence to anyone out there ya. its just my opinion. so here i go.. well, i don't like pretty girls. haha. sounds weird? In the sense that, i dun like how most people on earth see(s) and treat girls who are pretty. So what if they are pretty? they get all the compliments and advantage on earth? They get like by people just because they are pretty. the thought of it just makes me feel disgusted. i just feel that everyone should have equal chance on earth, to be treated fairly. to have a chance to prove to everyone what kind of person they are. Why are people all so judgmental? If only they are less of it, more girls out there would have regain their confidence pretty fast i believe.
For guys out there, just thought u should know. so what if a girl is hot, so what if she is pretty? is she going to stay this way when she gets old? NO. looks are only temporary, its the personality that matters at the end of the day.
Sorry readers for this post but i just feel like letting it out. Whether one is ugly or pretty, we are all humans WITH FEELINGS and i'm really grateful to have a boyfriend who accepts me for who i'm(:
Goodnight peeps
xoxo
Sunday, 20 March 2011
A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Its amazing how a stranger used-to-be can end up being the most important person in my life. i'm afraid of seperations, i really am. no matter what, we're going to try our best to make things work alrights. iloveyou.(p/s i know i look kinda creepy here. LOL. )
Saturday, 19 March 2011
Friday, 18 March 2011
Blogging time. so HI(: Made a trip back to school because of GLcamp briefing. um, signed up for bonding camp as well. hope everything will go well tho because frankly speaking i don't realy feel good about the coming bonding camp:/ Also, i signed up as a facilitator for 30hours Famine Camp. find it really meaningful! hope i'll get through the interview tho(: So lunched with DD then home sweet home. OHHH. did i mentioned that Mr. Robby is really a great teacher!?(: knowing that i've interest in psychology, he offered to lend me his psychology textbook which he used in university:D AWESOMMME YOO:D hee. So yeap, was reading it just now. interesting(: but i was kinda selective with what i'm readin tho. hahaha.
Thinking of volunteering at IMH:D gonna go checkitout, prolly tmr!(: HEE.
Thursday, 17 March 2011
HIHI(: today was great overall. DANCE was awesome tho it was abit too faast to catch up with the steps.Previous lesson was taught by Gin and xue hui taught us this week. AWESSOOOME. just hope i can be like the abm girls. they're really awesome. really like the way they dance. my leg is kinda aching from the dance. Stayed back to prac the steps till 7plus before heading for dinner tgther with DD, huai shen and Alicia(: chit chat chatted. Home around 10plus. love spending time with DD. and it has already become a habit of having to see him everyday. tskkk. good or bad?:/ sigh sigh. but nonethless, today was a great day. iloveyou(:
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
DD has been off to a 3D2N chalet with his friends. Miss him alooot. i hate it whenever he is not around& i'll come to senses that i dunno who to turn to. feel ultra lonely. ok, maybe i am wrong. i know that there are people there for me. but i just cant... ok, forget about it. Just feeling really terrible inside when the thought of "friends" comes to me. Dance tmr. hope everything will be fine. After tmr, i'll be having my own room officially. but why do i not feel happy. nt even excited. byebye.
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
A picture of your most treasured item.
i know the title says most treasured item without a "S". but well, i have 2 of it. haha. lol. Smiley was given by dajie and it has been with me thru all my lonely moments. that doggy there was given by DD on valentine's day which of course i cherish it alot too.
Was bloghopping when i came across this. find it kinda of true tho. so here it is..
Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about youa lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about youa lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
Sunday, 13 March 2011
can i speak the truth here? haha:/ i wouldn't get judged or laughed at right:/ Its just a random thought but it got my heart pumping fast:x i'm actually....afraid that the world will come to an end. DD always say that human deserves it because we're the cause of it& he's kinda looking forward to this day. As much as i agree that its human's fault, i still cant face the fact that the world MAY be coming to an end. i cant bear to part from the people i love, especially yoou. the thought of it just made me feel sad and panicky. there is so much more i want to experience in life. is this why people always say, live your life to the fullest. guess i'm starting to get what it means. feeling kinda horrible inside me while blogging this out.
Recent news on Japan've got me affected in one way or another. is this the start of everything else?:/ sighhh.
i'm scare.
A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Currently, secret garden& gossip girls are my fav shows:D
Secret garden, not the korean show but the chinese one. LOL. haha. i love that show cause it has got everything i'm interested in! HEE. so definitely for this show, it would be the main actor i admire the most:D hee.
As for gossip girls, it will be blair's pic that i'll be puttin up. i have no idea why. maybe its her wild but sweet character. Hahaha.
Known as Blair Waldorf in GOSSIP GIRLS(:Saturday, 12 March 2011
A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Hi, for readers who have always been on my page, i think this young lady look pretty familiar to all of you already. so yup, shes Rolinda, also known for my dajie(: Known her for more than 6years already. cool yooo:D hee. Shall not elaborate much cause i've repeated plenty of times alr. haha.
OH. &&on every 12th, its our sisterhood day which is also todayyy!
SOOO,
HAPPY SISTERHOOD DAY DAJIE(:
hope u're having fun in thai. enjoy(:
Friday, 11 March 2011
A picture of yourself with fifteen facts
1. Kiah Gek is my name (people who don't know me at first tend to think that i'm some viet or indo ppl.HAHAHA. lol.)
2. Ordinary girl
3. i have a thing for blueee!
4. i love to SINGGG!:D
5.i can be super highhhh& super loooow.
6. i'm always filled with RANDOM thoughts
7. i make lots of mistake, dumb ones especially
8. i'm scare of spider& frogss!
9. i'm weird.
10. its hard for me to open up.
11. i do lots of self-talk, especially when i'm sad
12. Loves handmade gifts(:
13. i love blogging(:
14. sometimes, i wish i have the courage to face certain problems.
15. SAVING E BEST FOR E LAST, I LOVE OBD!(:
HELLO:D I FOUND THIS ON TUMBLR!
find it kinda interesting, so i shall start my 31days challenge today(:
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite group or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you’re afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.
Day 31 - A picture of yourself.
Thursday, 10 March 2011
Hello! i'm back(: so yupp. had fun today with awesome peeps at marina square(: Met around noon for our buffet lunch:D yayay. hee. excited girl(Y) it was AWESOMMME! sooo.. we started off with steamboat(Y) NOM NOM NOOOOM.
HELLO! its me:D
My dearest!♥
Eugene!(:
STEAMBOAT:D hee.
After that, its ice cream time!(L) what so cool about it is that we get to cook it ourselves(: AWESOMMME? hee. Was like some noob when we start, didn know how it works and got the ice cream froze on the "pan" (or whatever u call that). super funny. haha. so we're left with no choice but to start scrapping the ice cream off from the "pan". p/s its not easy kayy. haha. All of us took turns to cook and of course took pics of our zuo ping:D
Self-cooked ICE CREAM(:
MINE!
Eug's!
HAHA. yes, i know. it may not look as pleasant but believe me, it taste nice kayy. YUMYUM. so yeap.
To sum it up, for my dear readers, if you guys are wondering whr this place is located at:
YUKI-YAKI:D
nearest mrt: cityhall
@marina square
its really worth the money(;
okayy, shall stop here for today. nights all(L)
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
Tuesday, 8 March 2011
ELLO! just thought i shouldn miss bloggin this out(: Finally met up with benben on 3rd march for KBOXXX:D miss her alot! really glad t know that she've improved so much in dance. i mean, i'm still the same me. not makin any improvement, nothing. but for her, she's moving forward every now and then. really admire her, hope she'll excwl in her dance& work towards her dreams(:
So yupp, did some catching up and as usual, we spout nonsense here and there. haha. it felt really enjoyable hanging out with her again. to think that we were once close like family members, well, haha. now we've our own lives to lead bt still glad that we're in contact with one another.
Kbox was awesome as usual. Camwhored, and did some catching up(: ended the day well. hopefully we'll meetup soon enough. loveees(:
Monday, 7 March 2011
Confidence. a word easily understood yet difficult to achieve. well, at least for me. it felt really sucky t be me. not in the sense that my life is badd, its awesome max. What i'm referring to is the battle i have to face WITHIN myself everyday, ok nearly i would say. y'all know how that feels?:/ no one really understand how i use to hate lookin at myself in the mirror. Will anyone believe that i have fear facing crowds when i'm out alone. that panicky feeling. wanna be in a corner kinda thing. maybe to some, i may sound like some spoilt kid or some girl who is over dependent on others. but NO I'M NOT, NOT to that extend. shall not get detailed bt i'm really trying to face my fears. i did accept what i am and what i am not. But i never fail to disappoint myself over and over again. why? i don't set high expectations for myself. Its funny how i came up with the chunk of words above, it was just triggered by today's dance enrichment. i deproved alot alot alot.& the thought of it made me really sad sad sad. why am i always the one lagging behind. why am i such a slow learner. why is it always me. dance is meant to be expressive& i cant seem to bring out that confidence in me.
dear confidence, where are you??
Even with all that is said, i'm not going to give up just like that. maybe i just need to work alil harder compared to the rest.
kiahgek, all u need is to believe in yourself.
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