You're my sunshine(:

i love you(:

:D

"You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away"

life's been great despite all projects! haha. living my with days in laughter& i'm loving it(: presentation today, i was still nervous and shaky. but ohwell. haha. after dance, dd came to my house and rested. tired us. then DANCEEEE(: was late tho. and no one can imagine what we were doing in the train, so hilarious. haha. so anw dance today was great(: learnt new steps! but it was quite tough tho. heh. gonna train hard!:D:D ohoh! and i collected my sweatpants(: like finally:D haha. so met up with junjie together with DD and dajie, had dinner^^ yummms. chatted on our way back. then home sweet home(:

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BLAHHHH. still buried with all projects. but its ok, its going be over real soon! hang in there:D:D at least i have something to look forward to in the midst of busy-ness. HAHA. my dramas new uploads(: but of course i don't watch it everyday. i watch it when only when i feel that i deserve to reward myself. teehee. ok, just a short post. back to projects now(:

i'm happy(:

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Words.

Yes& that's how powerful words can be. Whether is it during conversation, heart-to-heart talks or even jokes, it is really important to be sensitive to feeling of whoever u're talking to. Just because one seem unaffected, doesn't mean they don't mind. it prolly just meant that they are trying to swallow the pain in silence, thinking of ways to stop those tears from falling. i believe everyone have been through times when they receive nasty comments. well, think about it. how does it feels like? awful isn't it. especially when its words that brings you, your self-esteem& confidence down.

i always tell myself this; its that feeling i cant get rid off& i wouldn't wish for others to experienced it too.

Because if you were to understand how it feels like, to be so crashed inside when all the while you have been trying to build up your self-esteem& confidence then you would definitely be sensitive with the things you are going to say.

Just a random thought, a random post(:

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Whosh. workload is piling up, but i know i can do it. jiayous(:

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Changed perspective

Hi all:D i'm back to post! So today is definitely one of the most interesting lesson we had in this semester(: We went to visit the foreign worker's dormitory& we even got to interact with them. i swear, my perspective towards this group of FWs definitely changed 180degrees. They are so different from what i expected them to be. &&i must really admit that, all this while i have been seeing them in a different light, stereotyping them just because of what a few people from their group have done. In actual fact, they are really friendly. really really friendly! Despite the low pay and hard work they have to go through everyday, they are still very happy with their work. Coming from a country without any proper education, they strive hard and are more determine to learn new things and improve themselves, compared to most of us. Their willingness to learn really touched me. They really deserve to be treated equally. they are just like all of us. They have emotions too, everyday they miss their love ones, wanting to earn more money, so better life can be forged, not for themselves but also for their own family, their children, their wife.

Fruitful experience, changed perspective(:

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"Surrender is giving up control not losing power."

frankly speaking, i'm really lucky. i have a life which is near perfect, which gives me even more reason to be contented about. i face problems, but they were never big to the extent that can take my breath away. However, there are some people who are left with no choice but to stay strong, no matter what happen. i've learnt that accepting the truth, the harsh reality is the least one should do. Because if we choose to turn away from the truth all the time, then we would be living in self-denial. isn't it? Also by accepting the truth also meant a step in moving forward. Maybe one may feel helpless and lost, but never forget as long as one is still alive, until the very last breath, hope still exist.

Just to add on, recently i've read a book;life lesson for loving the way you live&& in one of the chp, it talks about a girl who was born with a musical background; with her parents being singers and musicians. At the age of 4, she was already learning different type of instruments, singing and dancing. Music was simply her life. One day(already an adult), she got into a car accident, her injuries was devastating. What mattered most was that her vocal cords, trachea and esophagus had been destroyed. She could hardly talk, let alone sing. Her life is gone, literally. All the best thing that ever happen in her life just disappeared in a blink of an eye. But she knew she had to surrender to the moment, the reality. Given her condition, the docs told her that she would nt be able to talk again. Instead of being sad and depressed, she was in the state of awe and gratitude& never thought of giving up. She mediated everyday and was very patient, tho now, she is still on her route of recovery but at least she has successfully got back into the music industry,being able to record songs etc!(:

The reason why i shared this is because i wanted to tell everyone out there that no matter how bad the situation is, theres always light. i know action speaks louder than words.& i always wonder if i'm able to do it if i happen to be the person. well, my ans would be no. But it is important that we change our mindset now. who knows, one day we may turn out to be stronger and more positive than we expect ourselves to.

Live in gratitude, always believe. (:

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Choice of life

"Whatever you put attention on grows stronger in your life."

& this quote applies to negativeness and positiveness in life as well(: When we focus on darkness, we just allow ourselves to fall deeper and deeper into darkness whereas when we focus on light, we will see all the goods in life and attract the light.

So whats your choice of life?(:

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Negativity VS Positivity

Have you ever breakdown several times just at the thought that u're not good enough for anything? well, i did. today on my way home, i questioned myself as to why i've become like this. ain't i very positive in the past. The one word that people have got for me would definitely be "positivegirl" but now? hahaha. so yeah. just kept thinking but t no avail. maybe theres too many factors causing me to be like this. Things that cause my mentality to negatively change how i view myself.

Today in school, i felt so terrible. i didn want to shed any tears but when i'm with DD, i just let my guards down subconsciously. He is the only one who have seen through all the weakness in me. DD told me stories as to how everything that had happened is good. Everything, no matter good or bad, happened for a reason. i felt enlighten after hearing those stories from him. He told me that it is important that i learn to accept who i am, including all my flaws. i need to learn to love everything about me, which i felt was true.

Time after time, i tried to push away negativity in me but i failed terribly. Each time, i felt worser about myself. i could hardly control my own emotions. But i'm glad, to have such an AWESOMEE bf(: like really. Also, recently i have been reading a book; "Life lessons for loving the way you live", i see lil hope about my future sparkling in me. the book is filled with total positivity. Maybe just what i needed.

So i've done my own reflection, and i'm determine to start making changes for real. no more empty words. But of course, baby steps. i want to be positive and i want to reach out to many people, to also spread positivity, to help them. &&How could i even do it with such mentality of mine now?

so change, is exactly what i need now.

**to anyone out there who is facing/feeling exactly how i'm, dun fret, u're not alone(: lets make the change and be a better person(:

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jiayous!(:

Manage to get one work completed, so here i'm now to blog(: haha. gonna be so packed with projects and all for this month. Glad that i dun feel stress up or anything, yet. haha. Have been goin to the lib quite often recently(: teehee. found books which i'm interested in and finally after so long, i'm reading again! haha.

Just a short update about my day!

gtg. goodnight earthlings!(:

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Personality test

Did this during HRM(: coolz. remind me of those time in social psych class. haha. Anw, i got the result of Introverted, Sensing, Feelings and Judgement. its quite accurate tho!(:

ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

Personality Test by SimilarMinds.com

Detailed explanation of my personality:

http://www.personalitypage.com/html/ISFJ.html

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DD, sounds familiar?(: *click on image to read the words*

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Are we all suppose to be who we are?

If we are observant enough, we will usually see similiar actors/actresses appearing in different dramas. Most of the time, they are usually those that are more well-known compared to others. Each time they appear infront of the screen, they take up different roles. Sometimes, i really wonder.. Wonder if they have lost their real self in the process of pursing their career to a higher level. Everyday, they are living in planned dramas and stories which are written for them. When will they be able to write their own life stories? when will they be able to pursue their own happiness, other than career? Even in times of sadness and despair, they still have to appear cheery and happy infront of all the cameras. Maybe it has already become a part of their daily routine to do so.

I know this post is getting no where but it just struck me when i was watching some taiwan dramas. i always get very engrossed because i always imagine myself to be the main role in every drama i watch, because i want to try to feel what they are feeling. yes, ok, i know its very silly. but well~ thats me. i remember there was once i watched da chang jin, and after i finish all the eps, i was just stuck feeling really emotional cause i cried too much previously. haha. so dumb of me.

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i'm selfish, what to do?

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