Hello hello:D finally, some time to blogg. so had my INSTATS test today and i kinda screwed it though it is suppose to be easy. ohwell:/ sometimes, i just can't figure why i am so dumb even tho i work hard. the thought of it made me felt so disappointed and angry with myself. sigh. but i'm going to change my mindset. yess, i need to think positive.

so anyway, had cambodia trip briefing today and i got really excited over it. Can't wait for Dec to arrive quickly. cant wait to see the smiles on their faces! cant wait cant wait!! hee. whatsmore we will get to visit the angkor wat! i dunno why i am so looking forward to all these:X hhaha. i really hope everything will turn out fine!

Next week is kinda interesting to me. cus it will be the redcamp week. Olvl graduates will be coming. hmm, and i'm on duty on the last dayy. muahaha. DD will be dancing for redcamp. so cooool. i mean cutteee! haha. if only i can be thr to watch every performance. Also, i will be going for JAB next tue! zomg. haha. hope it doesn't hurt. The most important thing about next week is that its ELEARNING WEEK. yayayyay. muahaha.

guess thats all for now. byebye!

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i'm feeling so negative about myself that i may breakdown anytime.

never felt this bad.

i have to stay positive. i really have tooo.

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Dumb girl in a smart world.

"We go together like ramma lamma lamma ka dinga da dinga dong.

remembered forever as shoo-bop sha whada whada yippidy boom da boom"

OH HELLO!:D so.. its already week3. and everything have been great(: putting in more effort than first semester. i really hope to see improvement in my grades&such:/ hope i wouldn disappoint myself this time round. Red camp duties. Projects coming up, very soon we will have to face deadline. Preparation for pre&post cambodia trip. Exams for sem2. and not forgetting, my plan to save $$. yeahh! i need it badly.. recently quite a number of things happened, and i was taught that in life we need to have value. only with value, we're able to support our family&self before helping others. is that really true?:/ cus i'm still having doubts about it. maybe its just different perception shared. yeah.

why is everyone working for money? is life really all bout earning money? rawr. idk. i still don't have the brain to think bout all this thing. maybe one day, i will understand.

Bt anw, Dajie is going backk to thailand tmr. have fun there yeahh. its really a great chance for you to step out of all this crap and enjoy yourself(: Will be looking forward to your return and we shall meet up!:D *but it will be after my cambodia trip alr.* Believe you're gonna start everything afresh and somehow i'm anticipating to it. cus i feel you(: i guess u will be going thru how i felt when coming to poly(: haha. nonetheless, hope you will enjoy your trip back to thai! lovees(L)

Just a random thought. Sometimes, i really dread growing up. i'm scare of what i may face in future. especially the most inevitable thing, change.

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This is me- Demi Lovato

I've always been the kind of girl

That hid my face

So afraid to tell the world

What I've got to say

But I have this dream

Right inside of me

I'm gonna let it show, it's time

To let you know

To let you know

This is real, this is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now

Gonna let the light, shine on me

Now I've found, who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

Do you know what it's like

To feel so in the dark

To dream about a life

Where you're the shining star

Even though it seems

Like it's too far away

I have to believe in myself

It's the only way

You're the missing piece I need

The song inside of me

You're the voice I hear inside my head

The reason that I'm singing

Now I've found, who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

so true, so true.

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sudden urge to blog but without anything in mind. hahaha. lolol. so just a random post today(:

Umm, tight cash recently. feel like taking up a part time job for weekends. should i?:/ but when opportunity comes knocking at my door, i should take a step forward and accept it right. but what if the opportunity requires cash to start off with. not a small but big sum(to me)?

Also, i feel like taking up lessons again:/ like..dance and vocals. BUT.. $$ is another big problem D: i shall save half of my allowance each week if that is possible. this way at least i have some saving with me. hmmmm.

my eyelids are kinda heavyy. shall sleep soon.

goodnights earthlings:D

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S.M.I.L.E. :D

Hello, i'm backk to blogging(: like finally. haha. school was great(: &i'm a good girl noow:D not late anymore, and also attentive in class(: except for one or two times when i got distracted by my own thoughts. hhaha. Had our trip briefing today and i was allocated under the logistic team. um, well. different group from dd:/ guess it will also be the same for other group. the chances for us to get grouped tgther is very very low. big sigh. i'm just hoping that we can seat together during the flight. really hoping!

Had been pretty emotional recently. should start adjusting myself and have more management over my own emotions. whoshh. glad to have you. (L) School starts late tmr:D so finally! i can get to sleep longer (Y) so tired recently. hee. will be back to update more soon! byeee.

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